| omfg man! i swear...Xanga is begining to be worst then aol..."america OFFline" i swear..ever since i upgraded, Xanga been down more times then its been up. anyways..right now im brushing my teeth...i figure, i better add in an entry now, cause lord knows when the next time itll be up. lolz. anyways, so yea...todays mine and babycakes 6month anniversary...wooo hooo!! omg! we got into like..a fight last night, and it was so all my fault...gawd..well, it was nothing bad, like cheating or anything like that..it was all about me over reacting..blah blah blah...anyways, i was bytchen to him and shyt like that...and then he goes and says.."i love you" "happy anniversary" and i was like...hmmm yea. i mean gawd! am i not such a f*cken bytch?!?! omg! and anyways...do u know what he did after all my bitching??? omg! he like...sat down, and was like "talking" to me..i mean..i was like..whoa...he was so fricken cute and shyt...hes sooooo cuute! i mean..omg! we were like disgussing our feelings and stuff...well, i shouldnt say we..cause he was the one doin all the work..anyways, hes so totally precious..i mean..gawd...we always tease eachother about who loves who more, and honestly..i really really really thought and felt like i loved him more..ya know? but idk, now its like...i wanna say we love eachother equally, just to make me look good..lol..but deep down inside..i know he loves me more..i mean, gawd, who else would put up w/my bullshyt, and after me sayin all this stuff...talk to me calmly..i mean gawd, i was like...expecting a "well, fuck you to u stupid bytch" but instead i got a "honey, i know ure mad, youll get over it ...itll b okay, i love you" i was just like....whooooa...now im thinkin to myself..do i even deserve this guy? i mean fuck..i realized, just last night, that i am seriously a bytch to him...why does he stand by myside even through my bitchest moments? its cause he loves me!! awwww...sniff sniffies.. i mean, okay..dont get me wrong, ive been "loved" before...and i thought i was "inlove" but idk, this relationship has made me realize what love REALLY is..i mean, sure we fight, i say "w/e im so done.." but do u think he ever gave up on me? wait lemme think.....nope!! not once, not even for a second did he give up on me.:'( i mean, sure, hes a butthead and a meanieface sometimes...SOMETIMES, but all in all hes like the bestestest guy ever. i admit, i get grouchie and i accuse him of cheating on me, or having hoes over..(**angel face, angel face**)but its only cause i love him bunches!!  hes my babycakes...MY babycakes. sniff sniff..gee...i been brushing my teeth for like 2938902 minutes already. i really dont even know why im writing this. but scenes as is this only took me about 5 minutes to type..i guess i had alot on my mind..lolz..okay, so maybe i should go now...no one reads my journal anyways..lol..so thats why i can tell it w/e i want..hehe..anyways, im out for now..bye peeps
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yall betta have! that shyt was gooooood...anyways, ill bblZ..ima go eat sum chocolate, and harass muh babycakes...